My Big Fat Life – Orlando Shooting & Church Activists

A year ago 49 people were gunned down in a nightclub in Orlando. They were targeted because they were gay. I don't talk much about the LGBT community since I left it behind, but when I see headlines that scream of violence against those who are victims of hate crimes based on their sexuality my...

My Big Fat Life – Jesus Take The Wheel (but let me press the gas pedal)

G had another seizure the weekend before last. It was one of those grand-mal seizures, and scared the crap out of me. This makes three now. The second seizure he had was something called a "partial", and it was after that the Dr ordered an EEG. The day before he had this last one he...

My Big Fat Life – Last Pill

June 11th was supposed to be the last day of prednisone, but apparently I counted the days wrong, and it was this morning. This day has been a dreaded coming. When I was putting his pills in his medication dispenser a few days a go, I started tearing up. The forced reality that this is...

I used to get really offended when kids would stare at G when we are out in public. You see, because of the prednisone doses, G has been dealing with a suppressed immune system. Because of this, when we go out I make him wear medical masks to reduce his chances of walking into a...

My Big Fat Life – Waves

When I was pregnant with the twins, I went through a very dark place in time. It was really difficult. I carried death and life with me every single moment. I couldn't walk away from it, I couldn't deny it. Every time I looked down, or in a mirror, there it was. I was pregnant...

My Big Fat Life – Here We Go Again

One of the few things people know about me, is that I have to listen to R&B when I write. I have never been able to figure it out, but as I sit here I have Toni Braxton blaring into my ears. I have to say she makes me feel I have my groove this...

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce – Gabriels Heart

The blog posted before I was finished writing. Apologies for the resend, but this the complete entry. It was a premature enter button push.

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce & Other Tales of a Woman

It’s really freaking hard to think that it has been almost a month.

So, here is the run down on where things are.

August of 2000 I gave birth to a wonderful boy. In fact, two of them. I had twins. Only, mid way through my pregnancy (at 20 weeks) I was told I was going to have twins, yet one wasn’t alive. They were in fact, conjoined. When I tell people this they want to know how the boys were conjoined, and usually think of what is full conjoined twins or most commonly known as Siamese Twins. The boys were conjoined, but by one long umbilical cord. The cord made a stop off in the placenta, but kept flowing to the other baby. It is called T.R.A.P Syndrome. G’ls heart worked for both babies.

I was devastated. I grieved the loss of one child, though I had to carry…

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It's really freaking hard to think that it has been almost a month. So, here is the run down on where things are. August of 2000 I gave birth to a wonderful boy. In fact, two of them. I had twins. Only, mid way through my pregnancy (at 20 weeks) I was told I was...

My Big Fat lesbian Life – Valerie Harper, Cancer & My Son Is Coming Home Today.

Today is March 7th 2013 and today is the day that my son will be home. It's been a little over two years, a cancer diagnosis, 5 surgeries and heaps of tears since I have laid my eyes on that kid last. He spent the week competing in the Warriors Games Trials in California. Last...

My Big Fat Lesbian Life – Wide Awake

I will open this with a hard truth. Recently a friend of mine, Lisa Mae, asked me a very honest question during a conversation, as she listened to my latest mess of a dating situation where I had to break off yet another disaster. She asked me "Aren't you tired of telling the same story?"...