My Big Fat Lesbian Life – I’m Angry. I’m Sad. I’m Hurt. I’m Angry.

A couple of days ago my son had his 4th surgery. This time, they removed half of his thyroid because of a growth. If you've been reading my blog, you know I was expecting him home in April (he's stationed overseas, Marines). I haven't seen him once since his cancer diagnosis a year ago. They're...

My Big Fat Lesbian Life – Fill A Heart

Somedays, I just feel like I can't do anything right. It could be the way I keep managing to slam my seat belt in the car door, lose my keys, the days I forget to start the dishwasher, misplacing my favorite earrings, or over tweeze one brow giving me a permanent look of raising a...

My Big Fat Lesbian Life – Into The Wild & Into My Heart

It's been no secret to anyone around me, that moving up here has been one of the biggest culture shocks to my system. Of course the reasons I moved from my small town, were of the worst reasons in the bigger picture, but at the time I truly felt it was what I needed to...

My Big Fat Lesbian Life – Update On Son

My son is coming home in April. It's just not soon enough. I miss that kid more than I can begin to even tell you. My first born child, I had him when I was 20. Just a child myself in a lot of ways, but having had lived a life full of challenges already,...

My Big Fat Lesbian Life – Dancing My Life

I've often wondered what it would be like to dance under the night sky. It's actually on my life list of things to do.. Dance under the stars with someone I love. I used to think it would be the ultimate of romantic. Music playing softly, holding close, and just getting lost in the moment....

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce – Thank You

After much thought, I decided this letter belongs as the last entry under My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce heading. It's really more of a morph (non Power Rangers style, though I'd like to be the Pink Power Ranger if I had to choose). In saying that, I'm struggling for the words to open a good-bye...

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce – This Is My Life

For some reason I thought it had already been 9 months that had passed, but in reality it's just passed. That's a good thing, because that tells me my life has continued in a more positive light. I've been writing more about the things the my life is about now, then it was when I...

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce – The Birth Control Mobile Rides Again

If you've been reading along the past month or so, you know my ex wanted the van back because of a payment arriving one day late. Here's the blog link that explains what happened to the van - http://mybigfatlesbiandivorce.com/2011/10/19/my-big-fat-lesbian-divorce-the-van/ We've been without a vehicle (which I have always tenderly refered to as "The Birth Control Mobile". I think...

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce – Rain, Rain Don’t Go Away *waves good-bye to 2011*

Dang what a year it's been. I don't use today to mark my choice to make some big changes with a resolution list, I believe change should happen now. I know that people tend to look at it as some sort of day to mark as the big change day, but I want to change...

My Big Fat Lesbian Divorce – My Three Sons

Well, I made it through Christmas. I just want to leave this blog post at that, but my heart's a little heavy tonight. I need to write it out. My eldest son and daughter weren't here this year. I missed them both tremendously. It was the first Christmas since my divorce, and without the both...