My Big Fat Life – Surviving David

Recently I read something that reminded me that I need to be a little more open on my blog. I tend to filter a lot of things, because .. well... I don't know. I guess I don't want to hurt people, and at times I don't want to hurt myself. But today I decided to...

My Big Fat Life – My Penis Says I Like You

There is a huge transition from dating men from having dated women. The dynamic is just completely different. I know that there are some differences because of individual personality, but over all... there is a difference. For example, when I was dating women it was a much easier flow of conversation. I think that women just...

My Big Fat Life – Now

I stated counseling. This is a pretty big step for me. I decided that I simply need a place to talk and work through some of the ways my life has changed. I had my first appointment this past week. It was the "get to know you" appointment. You know, that one where you talk...

MY Big Fat Life – Tolerance, Acceptance, Pray Away The Gay, and Facebook

Recently I was unfriended on Facebook. Before I start to sound like a whiny teenager (soory teens, but you really do get freaked out about this stuff) I have to say this was someone I considreed a realy close friend at one time. Since unfriending on social media is the new "I don't want to...

My Big Fat Life – Welcome Back

As many of you know, I chose to close my blog down because of the harassment I was receiving from someone who refused to honor my requests to leave me alone, and to refused to follow the advice of law enforcement to leave me alone and *unfollow* my blog (WordPress staff thankfully stepped in and removed...

My Big Fat Life – Roar

Life changes when your child is sick. It really changes a lot. Last June I was driving in my van, listening to the radio and feeling pretty good about life. I remember that day specifically, because it was the last day I was truly genuinely at peace. I remember thinking to myself "My kids are...

My Big Fat Life – Here We Go Again

One of the few things people know about me, is that I have to listen to R&B when I write. I have never been able to figure it out, but as I sit here I have Toni Braxton blaring into my ears. I have to say she makes me feel I have my groove this...

My Big Fat Life – Life

Dear Life, I would really appreciate it if you would just slow your shit down for a moment, and let's take this one situation at a time, okay? Sincerely, Someone who really is only one person I don't know if life got that memo, but it's ignoring me if it did. There is so much...

My Big Fat Life – Gabriel Update

Well, I had been working on a blog that was going to be about how great things have been or Gabriel. But then he got sick. Two bouts of pneumonia and on his second battle against postpericardiotomy(syndrome) inflammation currently, I wish I had a much better update. I've spent fat too many nights in the...

My Big Fat Lesbian Life – His Heart

I'm writing this from a hospital room where I have been for a week now. Gabriel had open heart surgery a week ago. The surgery went smoothly, but the recovery has been really difficult to watch, as a parent. When we arrived for surgery, I was so anxious. My son was going to have surgery...